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7/29 (from a bit ago)

Today started before the sun, but it was well worth the sleepy eyes. I was able to make breakfast for my good friend Jason before his last day of nursing school. Look forward to that coming day myself, but today I was proud to see him finish. It doesn't seem real that he moved into our house only a year ago. God has done much through him in that short time to bless me and the other men in the house. I will truly miss, and cherish, the fun and impactful times that we have shared, from launching things from atop our roof, blasting our pecs at the gym ;), talking girls, to challenging each other to pursue God with fervor, praying together, and memorizing verses...glimpses into a blessed friendship.

Last night several of the guys in our house went out to eat to have a last hurrah with Jason, and then had a great time acting a fool on the roof. But afterwords, when things settled down, we were all able to pray together and God's presence was clearly present. Burrito fajitas, hanging out on the roof, prayer, and tears...good night.

...But seek first the kingdom of God and his righteousness, and all these things will be added to you. Matthew 6:33
These words seemed to frame the night and preceded the following verse, "Therefore do not be anxious about tomorrow, for tomorrow will be anxious for itself. Sufficient for the day is its own trouble. Matthew 6:34

Jason and several others are moving from Columbia and anxiety can be easy to come by when unknowns are in the picture. God provides. Two words, often hard to believe, but continually true. Jason just received word today that he is being hired for a job in Hawaii as a videographer for a marine park, and is leaving on Tuesday, trusting in the God's providence.

I'm encouraged by those who continue to trust when details are fuzzy. Keep the faith.

la musica


I've been trying to pick up the guitar for years now. Well, halfheartedly putting forth effort to learn guitar. I thought I'd share with you the first, and only song so far, in which my right and left hands don't become bipolar when I try to throw in the element of vocals. This is very rough, as I have yet to really learn to play the guitar, or sing for that matter, but hey, you get some fun falsetto too. I wanted to share a song that has been running through my head lately. Not solely because it's the only song I can play/sing, but because it has such a great message that I need to hear over and over. Lift up and praise the Son, and don't worry about gaining anything else but him. Ben and Robin Pasley rock this on Enter the Worship Circle, Circle 4, if you're interested in hearing it in its original state. Check them out, they have been instrumental, no pun intended, in my faith and its growth by allowing me to worship God through their music.

Higher and Higher
Ben and Robin Pasley

V.1 Why would the people of the earth, sell their soul for a feeling
Soon to fade, soon to fade, soon to fade away
Why would the kings of the earth, dare to build a kingdom
Soon to fade, soon to fade, soon to fade away

TIE: But here we come, and we bow down, Watch us kiss the Son

CH. We kiss the Son, we come undone
We lift him higher and higher
We kiss the King, he means everything
We lift him higher and higher

V.2 Why would the nations of the earth, make war for a power
Soon to fade, soon to fade, soon to fade away
Why would the ruler of the earth, try to own everything
Soon to fade, soon to fade, soon to fade away

Galatians 5:6



The means to love begins with trust,

and faith in Him who forms with dust.

But how, O Lord, shall I attain,

to a love for those whom I disdain?

A love with strength enough to bless,

and pray for those who bring forth stress?

Sweet resolve rests in your Book of Life,

breathed out for ones born into strife.

Again, I ask, remind my soul,

before unbelief may take its toll.

That your sovereign goodness is worthy of trust,

ushering in freedom to again adjust;

From complacent heart to one brimming with love,

rooted deep within your Son above.

Careful religion nor its disregard amount to much,

nonetheless, I am apt to run to such.

For in Christ Jesus, the plan superior,

is one in relation to the interior;


Faith expressed in love.

Matthew 5:14-16

Let me love both friend and foe.
Let me shine, though fallen,
with a life, so distinctive,
displaying your glow.
For you have made me a city,
not hidden from view,
but a light among men
that points only to you.
Let me be the proof that
You are making all things new,
that you can be trusted
and that your existence is true.
Let your promises pierce -
deep into my heart,
cut out pride and fear
and greed to start.
For you are the Great Surgeon,
the one writing this story.
Oh, would you please take next,
any ounce of vain glory?
Replace them with contentment and love,
and freedom for others.
Let your presence be clear
to my sisters and brothers.
Light of the world,
to my heart you are knit,
Let my life show your hope and freedom,
that the world will admit
That you are real and glorious,
and worthy of praise.
Your light I shall shine,
for the rest of my days.

Cidade de Deus

Shadows hide the nakedness of this little one. Playing with a fan just outside the security of his scrap-metal home, a half naked boy was eager to see the new faces passing by. Apparently he seldom dons clothes, indoors or out, and just as rarely joins the games played at the new church a few steps away. The church building is not spotless or exquisite in any way, but rather is marked with bullet holes and puddles of water. Be that as it may, its lack of roof and stained glass does little to keep out the 2o persons who have decided that gathering there to worship together is valuable. I did not catch this little boy's name, nor whether he is naked by choice or circumstance. But I pray that the redemption already brought to those who gather regularly, just a few steps away, will soon affect his life.
Battered pews and wet floors are not what I envisioned when told of the recent church God has birthed in the City of God favela. Our church in Columbia is going to be donating funds to help finish the building described here: http://tinyurl.com/brazilianwall Once an execution room used by drug lords; now it has been redeemed and houses a beautiful portion of God's church.
Not trained to say cheese or smile when a camera is produced, this little guy looks curiously at me and my camera. Most likely having never seen his own photo, he was amused by the picture on the rear of the camera. "Another, take another" was my interpretation of the words that followed. Having been seen eating food found on the mired paths that interlace the favela, it is comforting to see him eating chips from a bag. This is most likely not a treat, but nourishment, based on the rate at which he is eating, but he seems content with what I consider little. And amused by what I take for granted...a simple image of himself.
Long eyelashes, a sign of malnutrition. Huge smile and telling eyes of the joy within this boy. I can tell that there is something different about this boy. He clings to us like glue as we walk through the community, not asking for anything but attention and love.
He displays an unexpected joy welling from deep within. I am told that he hasn't missed a single happening at the church building since people started gathering there a few weeks ago.
We had such a fun time together and I was sad to leave him behind at the end of the day. So was he. A sadness fell over him as we had to pile into the van and say, "tchau tchau."
Our friend was reassured by Christy (a Texan living on mission in Brazil) that she would be back in a few days. It does my heart good to see that there are people committed to serving this community.
There is such a warmth to people we met in Brazil. Amidst poverty and desolation, this warmth was not absent from an older man we met.
The lines on his face, visible reminders of the years he has experienced. Wisdom eager to be passed on, but shielded by a language barrier. He is however able to portray his happiness that we are there. He knew those leading us through his city and trusted us as friends because of the work done before us. That bridge allowed us to pray and meet with many people. I am so confident in the work that came before, and continues after we left.
I cannot express the degree to which prayer is needed for this community and the workers for the gospel there. The building above is a house of witchcraft located no more than 30 yards from the church mentioned previously. God shines forth brightly, and the darkness will not overcome him, but the truth of its presence is still sobering.
An infant is held by a proud father outside the door of his home. This my friends is a rarity. Men in this community are scarce. Men with jobs, who love their wife, and who are also present in the lives of their children is almost never seen. This man is an exception. He is also a member of the church body that I have been talking about.
His older son takes in the picture of 12 strangers crammed into his house praying for his mother. This father mentioned earlier invited us in to pray for his wife who had spent many weeks in the hospital after giving birth to the swaddled little one shown earlier. I was brought to tears by the faithfulness of a family who has seen much pain, but knows the peace of God and has learned to rely on him for everything. I am humbled beyond expression and am crying in the library as I type.
This little guy has too many sandals. Just kidding. He's friends with the smiling boy pictured earlier and they exchanged handshakes just moments before taking this photo. I am hopeful for these two boys and pray for their futures.
Luke Freeman and his new friends.
After several attempts a successful bubble makes for a proud little girl.
Knowing nothing of the World Cup, this boy still knows the joy of playing with a ball. Who knows, maybe I'll see him on television someday soon, heading a ball in for a goal.
Contrast is a prevalent theme in the City of God. Clothes and trash litter the muddy streets and desolation abounds, but vibrant beauty springs forth from the faces and stories of its inhabitants. God is present and one could not ask for more. I need my hard heart to be pierced by this truth. He will never say, "tchau tchau."
I am continuing to process through the memories that I have from Brazil, but look forward to telling anyone who will listen about the goodness of God. Come taste and see that the Lord is good.


Granted Admission

Recently, I have been welcomed into the lives of many unexpected people. In a small group with church, we have been having a monthly game night at Paquin Towers, a local residence for disabled and those living below the poverty line. During a game of Cranium, an eccentric older man walked through the main door wearing a black beret and carrying an umbrella with a duck's head for a handle. He examined the game pieces, intrigued by something we did not see. I had brought my camera and as he was about to head up to his room for the night, I asked if I could take a portrait shot of him. He was hesitant at first and I wanted to respect that, but after a bit of thought he agreed. I took a few quick pics and then asked if I could get his contact info in case any of the pictures came out well, so I could give him a copy. We were about to exchange info, but he must have linked my affinity for photography with a love for the arts and invited me up to see his artwork. I was a little hesitant, but threw caution to the wind and up the elevator went. I spent the next couple hours listening to the stories behind each piece of artwork that literally filled his studio apartment. I could not have been more pleased to listen to each story, perplexed by the quantity and quality of his work. I realized I had spent a few hours up there and thanked him for showing me his work, we exchanged info and I headed back downstairs to see if the rest of our group was still there. I had been allowed into the intimate place of a stranger's home, an artist's studio to boot. During our time I had a small opportunity to talk openly about faith and nursing and living out of the country. Even at his age he works as a personal care assistant for someone with quadriplegic paralysis, so we were able to connect on several levels.

Another surprising opportunity happened during my maternity clinical rotation. We were at the hospital and my initial patient and her new baby had been discharged to go home. This gave me the opportunity to help out in the well baby nursery and to practice with extra assessments. After our lunch break my professor told me that there was a mother on the L&D floor with history of precipitous (swift) labor and there was a possibility she would let me help out. Turns out there were two women on the floor in labor and one of the nurses had told our professor about one in particular, but not the other. My professor accidentally asked the other. The mother didn't speak English, but through the translator said she was fine with me being there. Let me just say that I was ecstatic. A woman from a very modest culture had given the green light to a nursing student being present during such a special and intimate time, and a male nursing student on top of that! I had a little time to build up a rapport with the family, and was able to exercise what little Spanish that I know. The family was so kind and very great to work with. When the time came, the nurse called me over from recording the vitals to help support the mother's leg so that she could bear down and push. The physician was amazing and talked me through everything, solidifying the concepts I had learned in class. When the baby entered the world my eyes teared up. I have heard that birth is a miracle and I believed it, but seeing it happen right before my eyes made that phrase come alive.

I still cannot believe how special these moments are and continue to wonder why I was allowed entry into these private moments. God is SO big and I will never understand why he does what he does, but he is GOOD! My life so far has taken so many crazy twists and turns and I would be beyond a fool not to attribute each of the silly and awing moments to the sovereignty of He who created all things, showed his faithfulness to his creation by becoming a man, dying as a criminal, conquering death by rising from the grave, the father in turn looking on Christ's sacrifice as worthy, thus saving me from my depravity...

And now, allows me to be a part of his intimate story of redemption, choosing to display his grace by including me as a part of what he is doing. God is active in his creation and he is crazy good at what he does. Please get to know him; he welcomes you into his marvelous story.

Let Your Kingdom Come


How has accepting Christ changed the way I live? How do I now honor God with my life? Both are questions I've been wielding to further examine and ponder how I use the time and breath I currently have on loan. Jesus gave us a living example to model our lives by, footprints, by which if we should only follow them, we would be led down the straight and narrow road to a life well pleasing to God. By looking at the example of how Jesus lived in order to honor God, I begin to see specific themes and issues that he cared about and taught on.


Matthew 9:35-38

35 And Jesus went throughout all the cities and villages, teaching in their synagogues and proclaiming the gospel of the kingdom and healing every disease and every affliction. 36 When he saw the crowds, he had compassion for them, because they were harassed and helpless, like sheep without a shepherd. 37 Then he said to his disciples, “The harvest is plentiful, but the laborers are few; 38 therefore pray earnestly to the Lord of the harvest to send out laborers into his harvest.”

Matthew 20: 25-28

25 But Jesus called them to him and said, “You know that the rulers of the Gentiles lord it over them, and their great ones exercise authority over them. 26 It shall not be so among you. But whoever would be great among you must be your servant, [1] 27 and whoever would be first among you must be your slave, [2] 28 even as the Son of Man came not to be served but to serve, and to give his life as a ransom for many.”

1 Peter 4:11

11 whoever speaks, as one who speaks oracles of God; whoever serves, as one who serves by the strength that God supplies—in order that in everything God may be glorified through Jesus Christ. To him belong glory and dominion forever and ever. Amen.

Galatians 5: 22-24

22 But the fruit of the Spirit is love, joy, peace, patience, kindness, goodness, faithfulness, 23 gentleness, self-control; against such things there is no law. 24 And those who belong to Christ Jesus have crucified the flesh with its passions and desires.

Psalm 102: 18-22

18 Let this be recorded for a generation to come,
so that a people yet to be created may praise the Lord:
19 that he looked down from his holy height;
from heaven the Lord looked at the earth,
20 to hear the groans of the prisoners,
to set free those who were doomed to die,
21 that they may declare in Zion the name of the Lord,
and in Jerusalem his praise,
22 when peoples gather together,
and kingdoms, to worship the Lord.

Ephesians 5: 1-2

1 Therefore be imitators of God, as beloved children. 2 And walk in love, as Christ loved us and gave himself up for us, a fragrant offering and sacrifice to God.

Mark 16: 15

15 And he said to them, “Go into all the world and proclaim the gospel to the whole creation.

2 Corinthians 5: 17-19

17 Therefore, if anyone is in Christ, he is a new creation. [1] The old has passed away; behold, the new has come. 18 All this is from God, who through Christ reconciled us to himself and gave us the ministry of reconciliation; 19 that is, in Christ God was reconciling [2] the world to himself, not counting their trespasses against them, and entrusting to us the message of reconciliation.

Matthew 25: 34-40

34 Then the King will say to those on his right, ‘Come, you who are blessed by my Father, inherit the kingdom prepared for you from the foundation of the world. 35 For I was hungry and you gave me food, I was thirsty and you gave me drink, I was a stranger and you welcomed me, 36 I was naked and you clothed me, I was sick and you visited me, I was in prison and you came to me.’ 37 Then the righteous will answer him, saying, ‘Lord, when did we see you hungry and feed you, or thirsty and give you drink? 38 And when did we see you a stranger and welcome you, or naked and clothe you? 39 And when did we see you sick or in prison and visit you?’ 40 And the King will answer them, ‘Truly, I say to you, as you did it to one of the least of these my brothers, [1] you did it to me.’

Jesus made service to the poor, sacrifice, suffering, and sharing the Good News with all people a priority in his life. How does this affect the way I react to people I encounter? My future plans? My decisions? My Friendships? My attitude?

Things I am pondering.